Can Jesus still forgive me?

I have come to realize that Jesus died for our sins and decended to hell but then to heaven in the right hand of our father lord.. also that one day Jesus himself will have use either in his right hand or left.. and the ones on the left shall go to hell.. I felt like Io was givven a final test. Feeling like a child of God before and being at the kindom of heaven, something happened really bad and in a matter of seconds everything went down and I seen colors bad colors mixing in with good ones and my mind becoming so sensible I literally thought I was in hell..But with Jesus still there (well know I realize it)but he seemed so far. Having still a few vibes and hope I had sex with my bf alot and got pregnant.. I really feel like I sinned and I feel like jesus without the cross.. my cross was mental pain but I failed my test. and I feel when judment day comes i would be aat the left.. If it is possible for god to forgive me he can.. but i know his evil side i guess because he wont help me.. nothing makes sense